Over the past three days I’ve gradually begun to recognise that my faith in LOA, Source energy (call it God if you prefer) and all things spiritual is about to be tested.
My beautiful, gentle father is beginning the process of dying. He has an illness which is in its final stages, and he has made peace with it. Now the time has come for the rest of us to do the same – my mum, my two brothers and their families, and of course me.
I have no trouble believing he is going “home” – returning to pure positive energy, taking his focus away from this physical world and back into something different. And I’m not TOO anxious about my mum, who is strong and determined, and whom I know will get through this. Although, as my brother says, it’s weird to think of her on her own – they’ve been the classic, beautiful “joined at the hip” retirees for the past fifteen years or so.
I know he has always wanted to depart before any chance of dementia setting in – he watched his beloved mother dement for many years, and he experience anguish from how much she hated every lost memory or confused moment. He’s even been comforting his fellow parishioners by telling them how glad he is to be going before his mind deserts him.
But oh! I’m going to miss him so much.
The tears well up at unexpected moments, and sometimes when that happens I can’t imagine being happy again. I’m afraid of the pain I think I’m going to feel at the moment of farewell. And I dread having to tell work colleagues because I can’t imagine how I will face the pity in their eyes.
But there are many moments of joy, even laughter, as we begin phoning each other and experiencing the relief of discussing the elephant in the room – life after dad. We are blessed that we’ll get the chance to say goodbye with love and serenity and joy. We’re blessed to have had so many decades in each other’s company. And we’re blessed that we all respect each other’s diverse faiths and belief systems.
We all have to go one day. We have to ‘croak’ as Abraham calls it. Doing it supported by a faith – of any kind – is a good way to go. Knowing that give me my first step on the road to joy.
Dearest Janette…
The timing of your post is impeccable. Allow me to explain…
Firstly, I see you and your family surrounded by the power of LOVE and the grace and ease of knowing the real Lightness of Being.
I see you and your family immersing yourselves in the miracle of this transition…as your wonderful Dad makes his transition to the non-physical.
I see you reveling…BASKING…in the JOY that your Dad has brought to your lives.
I see you knowing that the JOY that he is lives on forever…and that his essence, once he’s transitioned, will be evident in absolutely every place you choose to see it.
I see you resting. I see you resting into the power of love. I see you resting into the power of eternal-ness. I see you resting into…and basking in the energy of your Dad that surrounds you always.
I see you feeling utter peace and calm.
I see you moving through this process with ease and flow…
I see you and your family deepening in your connections with each other…growing ever closer; richness of relationship on all levels abounds.
I see you creating a passageway for your Dad that feels good…that is well lit…that is JOYous and bright…that feels free…
I see you, recognizing on a more deep, intuitive level than ever before…the magnitude of what Abraham tells us about this transition (or croaking, as they so lovingly refer to it)…and the magnificence release of being reunited wholly with the non-physical.
I see you actually feeling this…through your Dad and being forever changed in your view of death, as a result.
I see the celebration of souls, here in the physical…and in the non-physical as well. I see LOVE. I see JOY. For you, your family, your Dad…for all.
I know you already know this…and I share it because…
I have just walked through this passageway with a dear, beloved friend who left her body last Friday. I’ll be writing about it…on my blog…and most likely at GVU. Such a profoundly amazing experience on so many levels.
What I’ve come to know through Abraham is now JOYfully confirmed. I now know with every fiber of my being that the transition to the non-physical is every bit as delicious as they say it is.
And more importantly, I now know…through the feeling space in my being that I can see a dear loved one pass…and though I have moments of tears welling up because I know the physicality of our experience together is no more…they are quickly replaced with tears of ecstatic JOY and prolonged moments of tuned in, connected energy feelings that have no real words…that I am overcome with profound feelings of LOVE and Appreciation.
I am seldom at a loss for words and this one?…mmm…it’s a feeling for which words fall short. It’s beyond delicious in the most infinite sense. I feel like I’ve experienced what Abraham describes as the most magical of all releases.
My wish is that you feel this deliciousness, if that is your desire…and that this process for you and your Dad is as magical as you can allow it to be.
I love you. I see you. You are LOVE. Beam Brilliantly.
XO Debra (@debsoul)
Deb, you truly are an Earth angel! Thank you for your amazing words, but even more so for your divine energy. I’m kinda speechless right now, but I’ll be checking out your further thoughts at GVU for sure. Love you, my friend! xxx
Beautiful Janette,
I agree with you that Debra is an earth angel but I would like to propose that you are one too. You have a very real and serene beauty that shines through with the stillness of a Scottish loch, and know it is this unique quality that will see you through thus transitional phase – even your blog post about it was calm and reflective!
May I also venture, and please only take this if it is true for you, that when your dad moves on you will not need to miss him. As you will be able to re-connect with his energy anytime you want, just by relaxing and remembering him. You might even experience a new level of intimacy with him as you learn more of his life and have this new cross-dimentional perspective of him. I have recently experienced a dear friend moving on and it had been a real catalyst fir moving energy in my life; I feel closer to and more grateful for her than ever – and I was already pretty high up on that!
My thoughts and prayers are with toucans him and the rest of your family. How lucky they are to have you in the midst of them and what a blessing it is to know your father is doing this consciously and in his own special way.
I hope this is alright, I just wanted to express the well of feeling your post elicited. Thanks!
Oh Candy, thank you! I’m deeply appreciative of your opening up the possibility of not missing him because the connection will be even deeper. That is a challenge for many people to hear, and so my poor brain had temporarily forgotten. Love you for your kind comment, but most especially for that reminder. xx
I’m so sorry to hear this, Janette. Your dad sounds like a very special person, though, and I’m glad you’ve had the time with him you’ve had. There’s nothing I can say to make the near future any easier, but I would if I could. Do take care and be kind to yourself.
Thanks so much J-A. Don’t underestimate the comforting effect of your kind words, my friend. xx
I think this is where ALL the angels are hanging out. Including your dad.
And look, another one just joined the flock
Thank you, my friend! xx
JOYous flock of Angels, we are!!!! <3
Amen!! *flutter flutter*